i’m in such a weirdly introspective mood right now. like around people i’m pretty much fine but when i’m alone i fall into a slump. i think a lot of personal things from a long while ago are coming back to me — maybe not actively happening again, but they’re coming up again and bothering me, and when i think about those things i feel like i don’t know how to be around people nor do i want to. this started as some kind of weak explanation for why i’m never around much anymore, or why i might seem to be drifting, or why i havent crafted worthy responses to some of the love letters waiting patiently in my askbox. but i feel like the only way i can describe what i’m feeling is like…there are thousands of steep staircases spiraling downwards through my mind, maybe dark green ones, and every time i wander off and start to go down one i get lost down there amid all my stranger thoughts. and coming back up is slow and lingering. it’s a really uncomfortable feeling honestly, it’s not like i’m trying to be kitschy and unique or whatever because everyone has those stranger thoughts. but sometimes they are really scary and i don’t think i like being around people when i allow myself to consider thoughts like that. i think i like to keep those deeper, stranger parts of myself tucked away so that my “weirdness” can be limited to relatable “weirdness”, like slash fanfiction and i dunno, still sleeping with a teddy bear after getting thoroughly fucked. some days i think i could write the world’s most terrifying horror story if i just let myself, but i would have to die immediately afterwards because i couldn’t handle it. sometimes it’s thoughts like those. other times, it’s just inexplicable strangeness and no fear. the thing about trying to talk about weirdness that isn’t relatable is that, on some level, someone relates, no matter how weird. so perhaps it’s a non-issue after all.
chanyeol’s rap in “officialy missing you”
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[FULL] 130619 I WANNA DANCE PV - Super Junior’s Donghae & Eunhyuk (by RaiBaka)
yeah you grab that ass lee hyukjae
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The moment when princess D.O. looks better than you in a dress.
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the one you tagged as sungmin in that photo with eunhyuk is actually henry (:
this is even more absurd but thank you!!!!!!!
“when i came to korea i thought they were all gay”
hi, i'm myechi and i'm a pervert. things i like in order of importance: Lee Hyukjae, Eunhae, Super Junior, breathing, and food.
Other shit I like: books, avocados, languages, fake eyelashes, and cursing like a sailor.
K-pop and the like: Super Junior, Big Bang, 2NE1, Clazziquai, B1A4, Dalmatian, B2ST, Brown Eyed Girls, Epik High, Tablo, Handsome People, 4MEN, Vodka Rain, Sunny Hill, CNBlue, and a few others.
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